Saddest Poem I Ever had to Write

Dear Daddy,

I wrote this poem for you on the morning before your funeral.  I placed a copy next to you at your viewing before I said a final goodbye to your physical being.  I'd like to post the words here too, so I never lose this:

Daddy’s Girl

I’m daddy’s girl,

Always will be,

Even though the Lord,

Has taken you from me.

Watch over us from Heaven, 

High above,

My heart is broken since you’re gone,

But I still feel your love.

We loved to tease each other,

And play all my life,

Laughter was something we could share,

Even in times of strife.

You loved my little Tyler,

With all of your heart,

He will forever be your “Buckaroo,”

As he was from the start.

I know you were proud of me,

And I the same of you,

I wish you could be here one more day,

There is so much left for us to do.

I used to hang onto one of your fingers,

When I was very small,

I made sure to do that one last time,

When the Lord came to call.

You were so strong and wise, Daddy,

And were taken before I was ready,

I needed your level head and gentle heart,

To keep my life moving steady.

I love you to the moon and back,

And even more than that,

I’ll now look up to Heaven knowing,

It is you I’m looking at.

Take care of my little Lily,

Since I’m sure you’ve met her there,

I’ll join you when my time here is through,

Until then, I’ll keep you with me everywhere.

You always loved my poems and writing,

So this is my gift to you,

I hope you can read this from Heaven,

And that it will somehow help me make it through.

Silly Songs

Dear Daddy,

The song "Barefoot Blue Jean Night" came on the radio yesterday, and I remembered that you liked that song.  It also led me to think about a song you used to sing to me when I was little: "Baby's Got Her Blue Jeans On." I always liked that. I was also just thinking about a little part of a song that you used to sing a ton ... I'm not sure what song it came from, but it went:

"My hair is still curly, and my eyes are still blue ... Why don't you love me like you used to do?"

You used to sing that to be silly when we were picking at you and such.

The other day I showed Tyler a picture of you and him together, and he told me that you were at work.  I wish that were true.  He also said, "I miss Grandaddy," and I told him that I do too.  I know he won't understand for quite a while what has happened, but I'm trying like crazy to keep the memory of you alive in his little mind.

I wish so much that you were here or that we had even had time to prepare for this to happen. I hope to see you again someday in Heaven. I hope you are happy there with Grandma, Lily, and so many other family members that we have lost.

Love you,
Jen